Forgiveness. This is a special couple. Very special. My heart goes out to them. <tears>


Tue, Feb 05, 2013
The New Paper

When her sons were killed in an accident with a cement truck in Tampines, Madam Suliani Ang pedalled furiously to the scene, only to see their broken bodies next to their mangled bike. 

Recalling the traumatic episode, she breaks down in her first full media interview with The New Paper on Sunday. 

But, she says, her anger at the driver has turned into forgiveness – because he must be suffering too.

SINGAPORE – It’s a day she will never forget. Ever.

It was around 7pm last Monday evening.

Madam Suliani Ang, 38, had just started her shift at the counter at a fast-food restaurant in Tampines Mart, not far from the flat where she lives with her husband and two sons, Nigel and Donavan Yap.

Picking up her mobile phone, she noticed that there were several missed calls from her husband, and a text message in Chinese.

It read: “The Traffic Police called and said our two boys have died in a traffic accident.”

Speaking to The New Paper on Sunday in her first full media interview last Friday night, Madam Ang recalls tearfully: “My heart went dead then.”

In a two-hour interview at her family’s four-room HDB flat in Tampines Street 44, Madam Ang, born in Indonesia and now a Singapore citizen, recounts the events on the fateful day when her two boys were killed when a cement truck rammed into them at the junction of Tampines Ave 9 and Tampines Street 45 as they were cycling home from school.

Her elder son, Nigel, 13, had volunteered to pick his brother Donavan, seven, up from school after the younger boy’s wushu class.

Madam Ang had planned to leave for work only after the boys had come home that evening.

She recalls: “I waited but they had not come home, so I sent a text message to Nigel and told him, ‘Mummy is going off to work. When you’re back, please remember to teach Ah Di (little brother in Hokkien) his spelling’.

“I thought since it was Donavan’s first day of wushu class, he could have been delayed in school.” Madam Ang reported for work at about 6pm.

Eyes brimming with tears, she struggles, takes a deep breath, then says in a voice choked with emotion: “My heart was beating so fast, and I just kept praying and praying over and over again.

“Somehow by then, I knew that something was terribly wrong.”

Half an hour later, she couldn’t wait any longer. She asked her manager for permission to make an urgent call. She called home using the restaurant’s phone.

No one answered.

She also called her husband, Mr Francis Yap, 39, to tell him that both children were not home, and asked that he check on them.

The Singapore Armed Forces regular was on his way home from work at the time.

“All this time, my heart raced erratically. I just knew something was totally wrong,” she says. Thirty minutes later, she told her manager she needed to make another call.

“I went to the locker to get my mobile phone, and it was then that I saw the missed calls (from Mr Yap) and the text message.”

Her heart went cold, and her mind went blank.

Madam Ang dashed out of the room and told her manager: “Something happened to my children.”

She says: “I didn’t wait for the manager to respond, I just rushed off to get my bicycle and pedalled down the road (towards Street 45).

“The wheels seemed so heavy, it almost drained all of my energy just trying to get there.”

When she reached the accident site, she saw a group of people. She had reached the scene before her husband.

Says Madam Ang in small voice: “At first I was wondering where they were. I couldn’t see them. So many people were milling around.

“But I broke into a half-run, dragging my bicycle along with me, and pushed through the crowd. “I heard someone shouting at me, I shouted back ‘I am the mother!’ I just didn’t care.”

When she finally reached the spot and identified herself, a policeman asked if she wanted to wait for her husband. “I said no, I want to see my children first,” says Madam Ang.

“When they lifted the flap of the tent (used to cover the boys’ bodies), I saw there were two (of them). I said, ‘wah two, ah?’

“That was my first reaction.”

And here, the mother grieves again. Silently.

She struggles to regain her composure, then says: “I saw my younger son first. It was like he was sleeping. I tugged at his legs, calling out to him to wake up.”

Her voice trails off, and she breaks down: “But my older one…he’s so pitiful. Really so pitiful.” Nigel had suffered severe head injuries from the accident.

“You know, two children gone at one time, just like that. No choice… really nothing I can do.” The days after the accident had been a blur for Madam Ang and Mr Yap.

But the couple seems more composed during the interview on Friday.

“They were so close in life. They died together. They now have each other as companions,” she says.

During the interview, the couple is interrupted by a stranger who has come to offer her prayers and condolences.

When we resume the interview, Madam Ang says: “We are very touched by the outpouring of encouragement and support from people all over Singapore.”

Her spirit seems to lift a little when the topic turns to what her boys were like growing up. Madam Ang admits that she had a harder time with Nigel in the earlier years, right from the start.

“Nigel was late by a week and his birth had to be induced. As I was working then, his paternal grandparents helped to look after him,” she recalls.

When Nigel went to Primary 1, he was diagnosed as suffering from a hyperactive disorder. “But my in-laws felt that as a boy, it was natural for him to be a little mischievous,” she says.

Nigel’s teacher recommended that he get professional medical help. By then, he had gone back to live with his parents because Donavan had come along and the family had a maid.

Nigel was put on medication. But after taking only half a pill instead of the prescribed one pill, he was listless and complained of being tired.

Madam Ang says: “I was scared and worried. I went back to the doctor, who told me that it’s part of the side effects of the medicine.

“In the end, I decided not to let him continue.”

Donavan came along after the couple had tried for a few years for another child.

She says: “It was the first time I experienced what it was like to be a mother – to deliver a baby naturally.”

Donavan was also precious because Madam Ang had to abort her second pregnancy when the baby, at 10 weeks, was found to have no heartbeat.

The abortion happened during a time when Nigel was hospitalised at the KK Women’s and Children’s Hospital. He had a fluctuating fever and blood in his stool after suffering bouts of diarrhoea.

Mr Yap recounts: “It was the most difficult time then – Nigel was in the children’s ward and my wife was in the women’s ward.

“When we were told we had to abort the baby, we were filled with extreme sadness.”

Six months later, they started trying for another baby but it would be another few years before they succeeded.

Madam Ang clarifies that the delay was not a result of Nigel’s condition.

“We tried Western doctors, we went for traditional Chinese medicine but nothing seemed to work. Donavan was our miracle,” she says.

She quit her job at a factory when Nigel was in Primary 6.

She shares how Nigel’s teachers had been worried that he would not pass his PSLE, and how he was later downgraded to Foundation class.

“He had mood swings too, and I believe that it was because he gave himself pressure. But I kept reminding him that if he could pass, it’d be good enough. But if he didn’t, I told him it was still okay.”

She says: “I always told Nigel that I would be happy as long as he could pass. Nigel was ecstatic when he passed his PSLE, says Madam Ang with a smile.

She says: “He went around and announced to anyone who’d care to listen, ‘I passed! I passed!’

“When people asked him what his aggregate score was, he had no qualms about shouting out ‘121’. “To him, it was more important that he passed.”

Nigel was posted to the Normal (Technical) stream.

It was Nigel’s maturity that made her decide to return to work in October last year.

She says: “Nigel told me that he was growing up…to be a young man.

“He told me he’d take care of Ah Di (little brother).”

It was a promise he kept when Madam Ang was at work.

Nigel would help to warm up the food that she had prepared before she went to work from 6pm to 10pm.

“When his father was home, he’d make a cup of coffee. He’d wash the dishes, put the clothes in the washing machine and vacuum the floor,” she says, brimming with pride.

“He took over my role at home so that I could focus on my work.”

She pauses for several minutes again, lost in her own thoughts, then says: “Nigel loved his di di (younger brother) very much. Di di always bullied his brother because he knew that.”

Still, the boys were close despite their six-year age gap. Madam Yap says it’s because of her husband’s fatherly touch.

Mr Yap says: “Our friends told us to be careful of Nigel’s feelings, given the age gap. So we were always mindful of his feelings.

“We made it a point to explain to Nigel that his younger brother needed more attention because of his age, and we also made sure that we didn’t neglect Nigel.”

Looking at the framed photos of her boys in the master bedroom, Madam Ang says the position of the photos represent the spots on the floor where they slept on mattresses.

“I told Nigel last year that they should sleep in their own room, but he’d manja (“act pampered” in Malay) and said to wait until his exams were over. When I reminded him after his exams, he asked me to wait until after the school holidays.

“Then earlier this year, he told me, ‘I still prefer to sleep with you’.”

Nigel picked the spot nearer to the bedroom toilet.

Madam Ang explains: “He knew that his brother was afraid of the heat, so he offered to sleep further away just so that Donavan could enjoy the air-con.”

Madam Ang remembers the last family outing with her boys – a trip to Universal Studios Singapore as part of Mr Yap’s military unit’s family day celebration. It was two days before the tragic accident.

She didn’t want to go at first.

“We had been there before and I thought of giving it a miss since I had a church event at noon,” she says.

“But the boys pleaded with me because they really wanted to go, and despite knowing that I’d be too tired, we made it down as early as 8.45am.”

She says: “And now, I am grateful that we had spent our last weekend happily, without any regret.” With the boys gone, Madam Ang says it will be hard to move on.

She admits that she was angry with the driver when she was first trying to cope with the tragedy.

“Donavan used to finish school by 2pm,” she says with a heavy sigh.

But she and Mr Yap have now chosen to forgive the cement-truck driver.

She says: “Hating him will not bring our sons back. And we are very certain that he too is suffering from the knowledge of what has happened, and from our suffering.”

She does not intend to have another baby.

“I don’t think I can live with another loss, if I ever had to be put through another test,” she says.

“And having another baby will also not be able to replace my two beautiful boys.”

Madam Ang admits that she has not given much thought about what the future holds for her.

But for now, she wants to donate the new outfits that she had bought for the boys for Chinese New Year.

“I want to share my sons’ love for each other with the needy,” she says.

“I want to keep only their school uniforms as mementos of the babies who had come into our lives and brought us so much hope, love and joy.”

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FULL transcript of the mother of the Tampines’ boys Mrs Yap (30/01/2012) – Translated from Mandarin

“Brothers and Sisters-in-Christ, peace be to you. To all the strangers who came today, I don’t know you all, but because of your love, thank you for coming today, I really appreciate your presence here today. Your support gives my family & I a lot of strength, or else I won’t be able to stand here today.”

“Today at about 4pm, while I was bathing, I heard a voice. A voice that tells me to share… how I came to know Jesus, and accepted Jesus.”

“I come to know Jesus because of my eldest son. My son Nigel is a hyperactive child, and He gave us MANY problems. My husband & I were on the brink of divorce. I’m not saying 宗教 (religion) is not good, because I know this is a sensitive issue. I just want to share with you my experience.”

“Now I do believe there is only One God. And there is really One God. And this God is good.”

“There are divine ways and solutions we were trying to seek, we even went to Malaysia to calm our child. But we couldn’t find the way. My child gave us a lot of problems.”

“But my sister introduced me to Jesus, she said “You tried every way. Why don’t you try and believe Jesus? He is also a God. Just come and try, if it doesn’t work then it’s okay.”

“So I agreed and decided to ask Jesus, it’s better to try than nothing right?”

“Once I believed in Jesus, my whole family has changed. In the past my husband and I ALWAYS quarrel. At that time I was just a new christian.”

“Being a Christian doesn’t mean we will not have difficulties, we will still face different trials. But relying and trusting in Jesus, we will definitely triumph in every trial.”

“Jesus saved our marriage. And through our eldest son, our whole family was soooo blessed.”

“Actually Donovan’s not my 2nd child, I had a miscarriage of my 2nd child after 2 months. It was difficult trying to conceive him. (cries)”

“After Donovan was born, He gave us a stronger encouragement. I believed that Donovan is from GOD, and I always thought, Nigel used to give us a lot of trouble, so God gave me Donovan to compensate what has been lost previously.”

“Actually my thinking was very wrong indeed.”

“Because GOD will SURELY give us the best.”

“Nigel, is also my BEST son, my precious son.”

“Last Saturday in Hokkien service, I was leading worship and Nigel was playing drums. My son, Nigel told me “Mummy, I don’t know how to drum, I don’t know how to drum Chinese New year songs.” I told him, “I know you can, you can surely do it!” And He really did. We were really good leading together.”

“And my youngest son, He loves to dance and sing. In Sunday school, we also paired up for dancing and singing. And we were a great pair.”

“I really thank God, that through this two sons, I have a lot more blessings than before.”

“I believe right now, they are in heaven.”

“During the night of tragedy, my sister dreamt that they were wearing white robes and a crown of glory, both holding hand-in-hand, and said ‘goodbye’ to my sister in laughter.”

“I really believe one day I will meet them in heaven one day.”

“Because of these two sons, I will continue to live on strongly… (cries).”

“I really thank you Singaporeans, for showing your love and support. I am really extremely appreciative. God is so good, All Glory to God (Hallelujah).”

Source: Multifolds Photography Facebook Page

Ma Chi, the Ferrari driver was in the wrong. He was speeding, he ran a red light and he killed 3 people, including himself. He’s at fault.

Recently, Ma Chi’s wife said:

“We express our deepest apologies to the families of the deceased driver and his female passenger. We will not shun our responsibility towards them and will take appropriate measures at a later date.”


Mrs. Ma was not responsible for the deaths. Her husband was. If I just isolate her and not look at her in the context of her husband, this is what I see. A woman who is expecting a child any moment, who lost her husband, probably wondering who the woman in the car with her husband was and affected by all the conversations online.

Yes, it took a while for her apology but she was definitely in a heavily distressed state. But, she apologised.

At the same time the widow of Cabbie Cheng exhibited tremendous grace and said her family does not blame anybody and she wants to let the matter rest to move on with life.

Two distressed widows. Neither of them at fault. Yes, Mrs. Ma’s husband is culpable and I don’t deny that. But Mrs. Cheng does not blame and she wants the matter to rest.

There is a beauty in this ugliness that we cannot miss – the willingness of Mrs. Ma to accept responsibility in her grief and the ability of Mrs. Cheng to forgive in her grief.

That is beautiful.

Philippians 4:8

Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things.