FULL transcript of the mother of the Tampines’ boys Mrs Yap (30/01/2012) – Translated from Mandarin

“Brothers and Sisters-in-Christ, peace be to you. To all the strangers who came today, I don’t know you all, but because of your love, thank you for coming today, I really appreciate your presence here today. Your support gives my family & I a lot of strength, or else I won’t be able to stand here today.”

“Today at about 4pm, while I was bathing, I heard a voice. A voice that tells me to share… how I came to know Jesus, and accepted Jesus.”

“I come to know Jesus because of my eldest son. My son Nigel is a hyperactive child, and He gave us MANY problems. My husband & I were on the brink of divorce. I’m not saying 宗教 (religion) is not good, because I know this is a sensitive issue. I just want to share with you my experience.”

“Now I do believe there is only One God. And there is really One God. And this God is good.”

“There are divine ways and solutions we were trying to seek, we even went to Malaysia to calm our child. But we couldn’t find the way. My child gave us a lot of problems.”

“But my sister introduced me to Jesus, she said “You tried every way. Why don’t you try and believe Jesus? He is also a God. Just come and try, if it doesn’t work then it’s okay.”

“So I agreed and decided to ask Jesus, it’s better to try than nothing right?”

“Once I believed in Jesus, my whole family has changed. In the past my husband and I ALWAYS quarrel. At that time I was just a new christian.”

“Being a Christian doesn’t mean we will not have difficulties, we will still face different trials. But relying and trusting in Jesus, we will definitely triumph in every trial.”

“Jesus saved our marriage. And through our eldest son, our whole family was soooo blessed.”

“Actually Donovan’s not my 2nd child, I had a miscarriage of my 2nd child after 2 months. It was difficult trying to conceive him. (cries)”

“After Donovan was born, He gave us a stronger encouragement. I believed that Donovan is from GOD, and I always thought, Nigel used to give us a lot of trouble, so God gave me Donovan to compensate what has been lost previously.”

“Actually my thinking was very wrong indeed.”

“Because GOD will SURELY give us the best.”

“Nigel, is also my BEST son, my precious son.”

“Last Saturday in Hokkien service, I was leading worship and Nigel was playing drums. My son, Nigel told me “Mummy, I don’t know how to drum, I don’t know how to drum Chinese New year songs.” I told him, “I know you can, you can surely do it!” And He really did. We were really good leading together.”

“And my youngest son, He loves to dance and sing. In Sunday school, we also paired up for dancing and singing. And we were a great pair.”

“I really thank God, that through this two sons, I have a lot more blessings than before.”

“I believe right now, they are in heaven.”

“During the night of tragedy, my sister dreamt that they were wearing white robes and a crown of glory, both holding hand-in-hand, and said ‘goodbye’ to my sister in laughter.”

“I really believe one day I will meet them in heaven one day.”

“Because of these two sons, I will continue to live on strongly… (cries).”

“I really thank you Singaporeans, for showing your love and support. I am really extremely appreciative. God is so good, All Glory to God (Hallelujah).”

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John 1:5

I re-read the scriptures in reference to Jesus’ final hours in preparation to write the Easter Production by my church. The accounts at the Garden of Gethsemane was hard. Very very hard. I saw things I had never seen before.

I’m not going to write an essay here. I’m just recording here the words, phrases and sentences that struck me enough from the scriptures to highlight them. So what you see below is simply the Words I highlighted and the associated underlines (bolded and underlined below).

These are all from the NASB version of the Bible and are not in context.

My soul is deeply grieved, to the point of death; remain here and keep watch with Me.

Fell on His face and prayed.

Let the cup pass from Me.

He went away to second time and prayed.

Went away and prayed a third time.

Immediately Judas went to Jesus and said, “Hail Rabbi” and kissed Him.

Began to be very distressed and troubled.

Deeply grieved to the point of death.

Fell to the ground and began to pray.

Remove this cup from Me; yet not what I will, but what You will.

Again, he went away and prayed, saying the same words.

Whomever I kiss, He is the one.

And they all left Him and fled.

He knelt down and began to pray.

Remove this cup from Me; yet not My will, but Yours be done.

And being in agony He was praying very fervently.

His sweat became like drops of blood.

Judas, are you betraying the Son of Man with a kiss?


Now just taking the Words I double underlined, I’m left with:

Deeply grieved.

Fell on His face.

Second time.

Third time.



Deeply grieved.

To the point of death.

Fell to the ground.

Remove this cup.


Same Words.

They all left Him and fled.

He knelt down.

Remove this cup.


He was praying very fervently.

His sweat became like drops of blood.


Amazing Grace. Crazy Love.

God is a strange mirror.

In His reflection we see all at once our wretched humanity and our divine reality.

Working on my church’s Easter production, I’ve had to get back into the scriptures and read the accounts of Jesus’ last week before his crucifixion.

Amazing Grace.

We say Amazing Grace. And yes, we mean it. But once we suppose that we truly understand Amazing Grace, we don’t.

What Amazing Grace is to me, it is not to you.

What Amazing Grace meant to me in the past pales in comparison to what it means to me now.

We increase in our understanding of Amazing Grace as we are sanctified.

But of this I am certain. Once we presume to fully understand Amazing Grace, we don’t.

And this one thing I’m convinced of. We will never truly understand the extent of His Amazing Grace this side of eternity.

So, Lord, tutor me and increase my understanding of your Love.

Your Amazing Grace.

easter scene with crown of thorns, hammer and nails with blood on sand

When I sit back and really think about Good Friday, it’s not a happy scene going on in my head. This is because I know that I was responsible for Good Friday. The verse that hits me on Good Friday is Isaiah 53:5.

But He was pierced through for our transgressions, He was crushed for our iniquities; The chastening for our well-being fell upon Him, and by His scourging we are healed.

I have replaced all collective pronouns (we, our, etc)  to make real what Jesus did for me. I have bolded the changes so you know what I’ve changed.

But He was pierced through for my transgressions, He was crushed for my iniquities; The chastening for my well-being fell upon Him, and by His scourging I am healed.

I am meant to be pierced, crushed, chastened and scourged for all eternity. Instead, He was pierced, crushed, chastened and scourged in my place. How can I not love this Man?

Good Friday.

The adjective used with this noun messes with my mind – Every. Single. Time. 

Until I remind myself to see the adjective for Friday in the context of Sunday. 

Amazing Grace.

Thank God for Easter Sunday. If not for Easter Sunday, I don’t think I can handle Good Friday.

Thank you, Lord. Really.

And this is what God does. God is not about blah de blah but transforming lives. And I’m truly thankful.


You know….

You’re instrumental in my walk in faith and that’s why I wanted to share this with you.

Not because you talk about God everytime we meet 🙂

But because I see the transformation in you.


Michelle, that is the greatest compliment that you could give me. Thank you.